Its end of 2019, I have not posted in more than 1.5 years and I am at my highest weight forever 82kgs, please keep in mind I am only 5feet 2 inches. So I am about 23-24kgs overweight. Entered obese BMI. Really?? How did I let myself go and so much and for how long? The funny thing is that in the last 2 years I have been going to the gym – but on and off, what I have been doing is eating crappy food a lot, almost everyday, there was even a time of 1 or 2 months where my dinners would be bags of chips. Why? I let myself use food as an escape, a way to feel better when actually physically it made me feel sick, to ignore my bad eating habits and act like I dont care.
And in my mind I keep saying, but I am going to gym almost 4-5 times a week. Yes but that is for 2 weeks and then there is a break for 2-3 weeks and then i go again. And all this while I keep eating like a crazy not normal person.
I guess realizing it is one of the first steps to start changing things. I also keep questioning if I have it in me to change myself again and keep it. But that comes much later, after I reach where I am happy. The road to that point seems long and dready right now. But to be honest, I know if anyone can get it done, its me, I have it to make goals and achieve them. So why didnt I do it last 2 years. I guess no point to keep reliving what I am not proud of. This is the body I am in now, my body accepts all that I do or not do & I need to accept that this body looks how it does as result of my negligence for past 2 years, so I need to start respecting it and not blaming it. I need to make a plan and start on it. Coz I know my body will accept my efforts and change to show me respect.
Now lets talk about what I need to do:
- Scrap out old goals from 2017 on this blog:
Old Goals 2017
☐ Consitent workout 12 weeks
☐ Build Healthy eating lifesyle
☐ Fit into my LBD – GET AN IPAD
☐ Midwaist =28inches
☐ Arm =10inches
☐ Lower waist =33inches
☐ Hips=38inches
- Make New Goals
GOALS-deadline:
Lose 4kg – 30 Dec 2019
<= 75kg – 28 Feb 2020
<= 70kg – 30 May 2020
<= 64kg – 1 Aug 2020
- Make plan how to be accountable to my goals
– Update blog once a week about how progress is going
– Make meal plan for week and do groceries for week accordingly
-Prepare lunch for all week on Sunday, so no chance to miss
-Keep food diary-mentioning hunger and cravings and see patterns and triggers and them correct them with healthy alternative
-Exercise 5 days a week. 1 day yoga. No excuse.
-Only 1 cheat meal allowed once a week
-Visualize how you want to look and feel like it is real- and then act like you are on that weight/shape and eat accordingly
-If you mess up, correct yourself from the next meal
-start running atleast 7-10km a week
I really want to do this and I know I can. I just need to focus and keep reminding myself of my goals and why I want them.
Wish me luck!