I have not posted at all this year, except the 2 posts in January… this is crazy. But I did post on my other site about life including fitness too, so why come back here again?because this is my fitness progress page and I need to detail what I did right or wrong.
So January 17 I was doing weight training with my friend, worked great, but after that I started moving away from him. It was a lot of work to travel out of way to reach his gym and then wait on him to be ther1e on his hours, and manage a relationship at same time. I was doing 12hr days to say least. It got to point where I wanted some relief. So is changed my gym in February to one closer to my house (7min bike ride). I started by myself doing all things I had learned from my friend, then hired a PT for few weeks and then got back by myself. It was ok at first but I started skipping to spend more time with J (my boyfriend) and I was using it as excuse to take days off.
Another thing that happened was J eats meat which I dont cook and so whenever he was at mine, we ordered out, that really became a problem. It messed up my food. Also spending weekends with him was so nice, I slipped on grocery shopn and meal preps, leading to much bad influence on my diet.
A combination of all this got my focus off my goals. Then came June and my mom came to stay with me, after few weeks rest of family joined, and then there were holidays, touring, going out, lots of food goodies from back home. I lost complete focus and control. Ate everything I got and more. End of july, fam went back, August I went on holiday with J’s fam, another eating fest. Here i noticed I need to get back on track asap and started back in gym with a 12 week program i bought online. While I was getting used to it, september came with all sorts of relationship issues with J and I took to junk food to help me feel comfort. Not good idea, but its a bad bad habit that surfaced.
And now I am here. Yesterday I tried a dress I had on exactly 1 year ago – and it did not fit , didn even button up. So i am at worse than when i started the year, but but BUT I have another 3 months before year ends and I wana make a change, comeback to being healthy and doing weights and challenge myself even if things are not well in other aspects of life, to use fitness as relief and not punishment.
I am glad I came back to post and also noted what turns life has taken this year that lead me to loose my fitness goals focus. coz those are things I have to work on and make better decisions and choices if it ever happens again.
Life happens, but I need to remind myself over and over that fitness is my therapy and will only help me deal better with life. I will not give up on myself and will keep getting back up every time i fall down. Cheers to everyone trying to be fit and healthy!
P.S also updated my Mini goals!